A woman's worth
Tuesday, 31 July 2007 ; 11:49 ami am pissed, pissed with the boys who r self centered brainless & pissed with d ladies who r stupid..
i hav come across girls who will do anything for their boyfrens, or will not do something cuz d bfs dnt allow..
i mean wat d hell, we stand as individuals & we do watever we wana do, & im nt sayin tis things tat r nt allowed to do r bad things, for example:
not allow to wear long skirt, yes not minis but LONG skirt, wat d f* is d guy tinkin & gf u better wake up ur ideas & stop complyin..
not allow to go out with guy frens, like hello which centuries u livin in, we all have frens of both sexes..
i mean i really dnt understand..
Love is about trust, its about acceptin who they r, wateva happens happens, no matter hw much restrictions u set, it'l only hurt d relationship..
ive been ther, i used to put d bf b4 evrythin else, hinderin my evrythin, i tot i was happi, was i really? Isit really worth it, isit d way it shd b?
my ans is NO..
"So Sad,that girl was not stupid , she was in love
Some time love is stupid
Love is blind, and it will take over your mind
What you think is love is truly not
You need to elevate and find"
.i can only be me.
Thats all folks
Monday, 30 July 2007 ; 1:15 am
My seagaters
it had been a gd 6 mths or 7, short but i c it as if i didnt work here i wouldnt have move on, there r better things for me out there to show my potential & ability, so goodbye to engineering, it had been a great 3yrs experience, im aredi movin up but am givin up to start anew, if it makes me a happier person its all worth it..
wish me the best *finger crossed*
.i can only be me.
The Simpsons
Sunday, 29 July 2007 ; 4:54 am
Da da da da da da da da da da da da da da da da da da da da da..!
Yes yes yes its worth d wait, veri funni in fact i tink its better den d usual..
juz go watch it & hav a gd laugh..
*Spider-Pig, Spider-Pig. Does whatever a Spider-Pig does. Can he swing from a web? No he can't, cause he's a pig. Look out! He is the Spider-Pig!*
*He's not Spider-Pig anymore, he's Harry Plopper.*
Hohoho!
Bought this book - Bart Simpson guide to life,
givin it as a bdayy gift, but b4 i give away i shall read it 1st hehe, aredi read some of it & its as gd as d movie, crappy but i like it! :D
it hav sm interestin fact too, if ur a fan u shd really get it, even if ur nt u shd stil read it..
.i can only be me.
240707
Friday, 27 July 2007 ; 12:56 amAft claz went to mustafa, wanted to get chocolates for my colleagues as a small farewell token..
at tat moment it feels gd, feels gd tat i dnt hav to worry abt d time, worried tat its gettin late work tmr etc, time juz wasnt on my mind nowhere close.. so i took my time eat, shop & finally wen done & time to go back, farook say to me, duno stil gt bus or nt.. only den i look at my watch, its past 12am & i told farook its hes fault nt tellin me its gettin late aredi, hehe..
we took our chances waited for d bus, it nv came.. both of us gt no cash, i tot d nite is gona turn into a nightmare, luckily 4 us d atm is juz ard d corner so took a cab hm..
heres d best part: its a norm for d guys 2 send me to my lift so theres no exception tis time, but i gt a surprise no.2 frm farook aka logan, he gave me a big package tie with red ribbons.. its areadi aft 12, bday over but who cares its my present!
wen i opened my gift i was touched once again, haha, tis time i felt my emotions really runnin thru, prob cuz im alone at hm, d feelins i held on for d last couple days, i juz wana cry it all out, sad & happy ones.. but cannt leh, i tink i hav trained myself nt 2 shed tears til even if i want to i cant..
he gt me a bag, d same bag tat sylvia got 4 me! i remembered i did causually told him tat bag is nice once, so tk u farook, doesnt matter its d same bag, its a diff colour nwae, im nt gona change into smt else.. tats nt it, i gt a black towel, veri veri nice & earphones.. all these was mentioned d past couple mths thru our conversation, at least smone is really payin attention 2 wat im sayin, haha, but seriously it was really unexpected..
with such thoughtful frens, includin d rest of d grp tat gotten me a lacoste polo tee(i wanted 2 get 1), theres no reason i shd b upset abt those who hav forgotten my bday.. who cares & who doesnt, action speaks louder den words..
Im insyiraah, 25 yrs old, f* d numbers, i stil look gd & young.
Love u all again & again & again *HUGS*
.i can only be me.
230707 part2
; 12:42 amMon nite plan: aft claz, HRC kumar nite with my colleagues.
As usual my mind is filled with stuff, aft claz can only tink of contactin my colleagues, wasnt even payin attention 2 wat farook was talkin..
he say he wanted to go 2 d atm so i followed, while walkin outside fish & co. ther, he suddenly said,:"Doris have u seen d poster of d missin gerl?" & pointed to d back.
actuali i wasnt really interested but turn juz for d sake of it, den i saw smt weird, & look again with scrutiny...
"SURPRISE"!! familiar faces start comin out frm potholes haha, (duno hw u guys hide)
at tat moment evrythin tat was worryin me went away, juz by seein my lovely frens was more den enuf.. im extremely happy & touched, im juz superbly glad to c d presence of u guys, all present, nt a single one missin, usually there'l b sm tat needs to work etc.. so that was my blessin..
i have to say this is my best bday ever 4 d past yrs, last yr was a surprise too but compared to nw d feelin is so different, i felt d love, haha.. 2nd best bday was my 20th back in poly with all d gang members..
**special shoutout to : alip, su, wan, farook, semut, ernie, nick, clown,
a million tks wil stil b nt enuf to show hw tis meant to me, it is u pple who make my road alot easier to carry on walkin.. additional tks to d boys who take extra care of me. Its my blessin to hav u guys , hugs & love loads :)
d photos hav uploaded, courtesy of su, alif, farook, ive made a complilation, click on d link at d side, tks
Aft celeberation, off to hrc, kumar is gd, funny, but prob those non-malays wil nt find it tat great cuz culdnt understand. Had another candle blowin, tks to d niteshift seagaters, so touched.
So tats abt it, went hm at 4? slept d bday away, stil smilin over d surprise..
.i can only be me.
230707 part1
; 12:31 amFor the past wks i was very troubled mainly due to my sch fees, prob with d loan, met with loads of hiccups..
it was probably my own fault, i might have jumped into it too fast w/o really makin sure if i'l b fine financially, so rite nw im f*ing stressed out abt it.. plus d fact tat i'l b jobless in another 2days. i quit!
In times like this, i really wish ther was smone who wil tel me wat 2 do, help me etc, i feel like im suffocatin, i hav 2 make evry single decision, do evrythin myself, yes its been like tis all tis yrs i made it so far so y stressed out? pple c me as independent & strong, no doubt i tink i am too, but u hav no idea wats gg thru inside me, i pretty much dnt hav a choice but to bite my teeth & live each day, d only one i can turn to is HIM, my only solance..
in fact HE is stressin me out too, my frens u might hav been wonderin y nwadays u can c my long long hair, hw ironic at tis age it shd b d other way rnd..
im a muslim & i'l stil b til d day i die & dead, headscarf or nt doesnt make one a better or bad person, i have my reasons. full stop.
i cant bloody concentrate in class cuz my mind worryin abt stuff, im wastin time & money & energy, im messed up & i need to get it back on track.
.i can only be me.
Backtrack
; 12:17 amlast sat: Watched Transformer for d 3rd time, 2nd for sylvia.. both of us stil very much excited, stil in awe of the transformation of d robots, heh..
jap for lunch, shoppin, for her nt me, we walked & walked, juz reminded me hw much i hated shoppin.. i mean i love to shop but walkin here ther evrywher is juz nt my thing..
i was lookin 4 a bagpack, since my bday ard d corner, she decided to get it 4 me but culdnt find any to my likin.. i aready set my eyes on a volcom carrier bag previously, so she gt tat 4 me instead, whoopee! i was comtempletin whether to get it myself cuz i really need to watch my spendin..
so yeah i gt a new bag! tk u gerlfren :D
.i can only be me.
240707
Tuesday, 24 July 2007 ; 9:58 amGo shortie its ur bday! we gona party like its ur bday! haha
i got a very wonderful surprise frm my very wonderful frens, will update later 2gether wif d pics, havent slept since yest morn.. ZZzzz
.i can only be me.
The Black SunKiss
; 5:55 amNew life new start new blog. I began bloggin abt 3yrs back? i cant remembered. but d reason y i started was filled with pain. Had a sudden stroke of idea to let my sad old blog go, though i reali do like pitas then blogger but i'l get used to tat..for watever reasons any of you still wana visit d discarded, heres d link - http://fadeblack.pitas.com/
.i can only be me.