i can only be me

Moved

2007-11-10T21:31:00.000-08:00

Here i am
update ya, deletin tis soon.

Blogger no more

2007-10-16T00:40:00.000-07:00

hey guys i mayb, shd b, wil b, closin tis blog..
will be bloggin at 'multiply' instead,
reason, multiply allows me to set my post accessible to those i chose,
so certain personal tots (if i wana bitch abt anyone / work or watevea) i wuldnt b worryin tat those who arent supposed to know it read it, u noe wat i mean..
so pls my frens sign up at here & be on my list to be able to read abt all my updates..

i shall get all my links up & done tis wkend, though i do like tis blogspot layout veri much, i spent quite smtime doin it, multiply doesnt give me d options to design my layouts still mayb i shd juz keep it simple & nt waste my time doin all these..
so come join me..

Feasting

2007-10-15T12:21:00.000-07:00

Last thur mkn at newton wif d gang, gosh i tink we girls, su & me ate more den d boys.. chilli crab oatmeal prawn cockles stingray... shiok!
so fri morn i had a bad bad stomachache, was late late late for work, hah..

my iron was spoilt my wardrobe all needs ironin, yes even my tshirts r quite wrinkled, so as much as i didnt wana wear my liv jersey for no special occasions, it was d oli one tat need no ironin so..
it seems a girl in a soccer jersey wil naturally draws pple attention? a female colleague start talkin 2 me cuz shes a man u supporter, & a couple more male colleagues juz seems veri sceptical, they ask " r u really a liv fan? do u really watch soccer?"
so wen do u start to watch them played, who r the players at tat time etc etc..
i admit i am no expert, i do not know abt d formations watsoever, but so wat..
for all u noe im much more a fanatic who catches their games more den u do.
fans can be juz fans as long as they stick to their beloved team & sincerely support them & njoyed watchin d game tats enuf aint it..
but i do not like those who oli start behavin like they r a huge fan aft liv won d CL or any pple tat support a certain team aft d team had won smt..
nwae found out tat ther r quite a num of liv supporters in d office ;)

aft work went to big boss bbq at her apartment, studio apartment veri cool place lor.
its gd to join in d fun & bond wif ur fellow colleagues wif evry opportunities, i had fun though there r times i feel outa plc cuz most of them r mommies, talk abt mommies stuff, so makes me feel will i ever b a mummy, wen hw much longer?? n i wish i was like them, y not, happily married lookin hot wif kids.. grrrr.. tats wen i'l walk away.. my times nt here yet.

Selamat Hari Raya to all my fellow muslims!

I still believe

2007-10-10T17:25:00.000-07:00

"This isn't a time for being negative, it's a time for being positive"

"We just have to get our confidence back because we have lost it at the moment." ~ Benitez

i trust u.

Stickin it thru

2007-10-10T12:39:00.000-07:00

Go HERE

To be or not to be

2007-10-09T16:44:00.000-07:00

Go HERE

Sill in my heart

2007-10-08T00:21:00.000-07:00

Liverpool liverpool.. wat hapen my dear liverpool..
remembered i was laughin at d CL draw against those teams, knn..
juz nw game against tottenham heart attack, heart pain, wat r they tinkin? friendly game bein courteous, passin d ball to other players to score? wtf.
its well known but i have to say it again, gerrard is damn gd, loved him.. & torres is our lil magic, loved him too..
& i miss agger.

all i want is..

2007-10-07T02:57:00.000-07:00

i juz wana get a pair of new jeans but cant find any nice ones or one tat i can fit in nicely..

i juz wana get a cup of slurpee cuz its so f*in hot but d drink wasnt ready yet..

i juz wana catch a movie but tixs is sellin fast which means d seats r like f* & d nxt showtime is hrs later..

i hope my nxt wkend will b better.

Halloween

2007-10-07T02:43:00.000-07:00

~~Raya~~ is here, halloween is comin soon!
im so excited, i already hav in mind what i wana dressed up as, juz tat i might nt hav d time to find or make d costume, hw? but i really wana go as tat, hopefully i wuldnt c another person same as me, no no no..
if u wana noe wat i'l b, pls join in d fun 27oct zouk halloween

*hint: marvel comics *

At work

2007-10-07T02:28:00.000-07:00

Did i mentioned last fri i went to esplanade & hav dinner treat by my boss, shes d VP, it was gd i mean d food was nt bad, u must b tinkin wah my boss so gd blanja dinner at restuarant but did u noe most of us r stil desperately tryin to finish our work at 7.30 b4 we r ready to leave for our free meal -_-
still i njoyed it tks boss, more to come? heh

wed lunch was paid by my AVP, i njoyed workin with her, overall i tink im fittin in quite ok , i cant click with everyone though but im pretty alrite with them hope they r too with me vice versa.. my only complaint is d environment makin me havin breakouts, wat can i do?? sad.

thur lunch hav to stay in & watch Flinstones d movie, lunch provided, yup cuz we r gg for a short holiday trip to bintan comin nov & the theme is the flinstones, & we hav to put up sm performance or smt, incorporations with d halloween? i hope i wil hav fun.. fingers crossed..

Double D

2007-10-02T12:24:00.000-07:00

Sun i wanted to watch movie so much finally in d evenin semangat call pple check showtimes, fixed catchin chuck & larry at jp. when we were ther purchasin d tixs, d fella ask for ics as d movie is m18, & guess wat i didnt brin mine, & he insisted on checkin.. i told him do i look like bloody 17, he said juz for verification, knn! its ridiculous, r u gg to tel me if my mom were to come buy u will stil ask for ic 'juz very verification' bloody hell.. i wondered y there r dumb pple ard, rules & regulations r set by humans aint it, it was juz so anti climax la.. to my affected victims, im really sorry but u shd blame tat idiot

2nd disappointment was im so hungry but d whole day d food i ate simply sucks make me become no appetite feel sick instead sigh.. isit a sign for me to lose weight? not.

Yuhuains

2007-10-02T00:22:00.000-07:00

sat nite meet up with sec frens buka at saim kitchen bugis, d food was upset nt worth d money.. aft dinner they wanted to bowl, i went along despite tat i wasnt gg to bowl cuz im nt dressed 4 it & liv match is on tv.. in regards to ali's post, i gave up my liv to meet my frens, it all depends on d situation la, these frens i oli get to c like once a yr, so i went regardless if my presence makes a diff to them or nt.. i tink no diff if i go or nt, evryone comes in pairs happily attached/married.. eh babe we oso in pairs happy besties juz like back take bus 2gether d diff nw is upgrade aredi take car :)

nwae glad liv won.. lucky shot or nt i dnt care lor

Wo shi hua ren

2007-09-29T03:15:00.000-07:00

will.i got a new song - i got it frm my mama

makes me tink, i dnt inherit my physical straits frm my mom, my siblins & my mom r small build, skinny types, wen they r younger they r those typical skinny chinese kinds, whereas 4 me, u guys shd noe la im no way near skinny, im more to d chubbier fleshier side, nv once was i ever a skinny, im nt complainin though, juz tat im d odd one in d family.
since i can nv b d skinny skinny, i read todays today & i can look forward to b monica bellucci! i can b if my boobs size grow 2 cups up? haha..

1 of my colleagues dare nt talk to me in mandarin, she said i dnt look like chinese, mixed of dunno wat & another fren say i look like nyonya..
gd gd cuz i alwayz wana b diff dnt wana b d majorities hehe...
sadly im juz curious abt my heritage, since its nt frm my moms side, i wondered wat kind of pple was my dads side, tat i'll nv find out..
meanwhile i shall dream of tis:

Im still here

2007-09-29T02:20:00.000-07:00

i wont be updatin as frequent nw, nt even on liv games cuz frankly speakin i didnt catched d last 2 games, i prob oli hav time to watch d wkends matches, d rest like CL i tink its quite impossible..
my official knockoff time is 6.15 but so far i nv go back on time, most of d time gota stayed at least for an hr, so i'l missed my lessons nt totally juz veri late..
i try to slot in gym time in 1 of d wk days & on sat noon(if no claz), sat morn 'supposed' to do self study so am free on sat nite. sun rest day shd study too can fork out a couple hrs for a meal wif fren or smt..

someone tried to befren me by smsin & calls but i juz seemed uninterested, y ah? mayb bcuz i dnt even noe hw he look, mayb bcuz i dnt tink much of his workin title, i sound so bloody materialistic rite.. den again im so freakin bz, y wuld i wana waste my time on smone whos nt gd lookin or $$, wat gd do i gain? i may as well spend tis times on my close frens cuz im seriously bz & tired..
is tat gona mean im pushin away chances to meet new pple & im judgin them nw..
i guess unless d person is able to sell himself quickly & is of gd qualities or asset i wont waste my time on them..
im really tat realistic am i..

Long awaited

2007-09-20T23:39:00.000-07:00

Woohoo! finali! so happy! yeah!!

ok i wasnt happy abt liv score against porto, definately no one wil b.. i didnt catched d match 4 ur info, tk god if nt i probably killed myself, no wonder i slept earli tat day 11pm(shdnt b at hm yet, skipped my claz :x), i dnt remembered sleepin tat earli, d last time was probably at least 3yrs ago hah.. boy i was dead beat.. sch & work is really gettin into me..
back to liv, well no excuses, they did a bad job & lets juz hope they redeem themselves d nxt round, they better do! i'll make sure i watch tis home game..

so wat am i happy abt??
aft almost a mth of waitin, my items finalli arrived all the way frm liverpool~

loved d jersey! look damn gd in it lor kekeke but cant wear often & must dry clean really tk care of it, my heart wuld really break if thers any slight damage to it
i cant help it but to say again - i love it!! hohoho

summary

2007-09-16T16:15:00.000-07:00

bz bz bz.. workin late, rushin 4 classes, no time go workout.. but im actuali hapi at least 4 nw, past 2 wks had been gd..
& hard work paid off, im nw a permament staff *smirks* i tink & i hope i'll stay here 4 at least 4-5 yrs *fingercrossed*

last wkend paintball session was quite an experience, njoyed it veri much, tks to all who made it possible - alif ali wan semut su ernie shaiful sheik odi.
im definately gona go again, any takers?

last nite liv match was a disappointment, so frustratin, i feel like im watchin a last season match.. portsmouth was dirty, slappin pple face n such..
ref was inconsistent, gave a penalty kick 4 nothin, tats y reina saved it, tk god if nt we would hav been robbed again..
we shall win d nxt match :)

Bourne not bond

2007-09-03T22:28:00.000-07:00

finali aft so long i catch d movie, great i love it, i simply love matt damon. :x

Keep it on the top

2007-09-02T03:01:00.000-07:00

Liverpool 6 - 0 Derby

Yak yak yak
ok la i shd nt bragged, poor derby, we r not d oli team who crash them but stil 6 wonderful goals, beat tat!
So excited when alonso scored, i felt so 2seasons ago, brillant

i dnt understand y they r motherfuckers(dnt mind my language im juz pissed) out ther who tinks & stil tinks so lowly of liv, sayin its wishful tot tat liv wil win d title, if their comments make sense its fine i agreed but helo hav u even watched their last matches, u tellin me they sucks?? like pls hav ur teams won d CL? dnt speak like u noe it all wen u didnt watch d games
the reds won it by sheer luck? penalty i agreed depends on luck but wat they go thru til the finals winnin all those matches r by luck? wake up ur bloody ideas
eg, arsenal hav young players they r fast nvm they didnt win but they wil in d future? wat kind of nonsense, we wan results nw nt a couple yrs later, like wat other teams wuldnt sign new young players down d road?
i dnt like man u or chelsea but do i say things like they sucks they cant played, they hav their strong pts too so pls make ur judgments thru facts & dnt talk crap
dnt badmouthed other teams to their fans unless u wana make them hate u carry on, u irritants

The draw

2007-08-31T01:40:00.000-07:00

Grp A
Liverpool - Eng
Porto - Por
Marseille - Fra
Besiktas - Tur

My predictions - Liverpool, of course! porto

Grp B
Chelsea - Eng
Valencia - Spa
Schalke - Ger
Rosenborg - Nor

My predictions - Chelsea(yucks), Valencia

Grp C
Real Madrid - Spa
Werder Bremen - Ger
Lazio - Ita
Olympiakos - Gre

My predictions - Real Madrid(Ewww), Olympiakos

Grp D
AC Milan - Ita
Benfica - Por
Celtic - Sco
Shakhtar Donetsk - Ukr

My predictions - AC Milan, Benfica

Grp E
Barcelona - Spa
Lyon - Fra
Stuttgart - Ger
Rangers - Sco

My predictions - Barcelona, Lyon

Grp F
Manchester United - Eng
Roma - Ita
Sporting Lisbon - Por
Dynamo Kiev - Ukr

My predictions - Roma, Dynamo Kievhehe

Grp G
Inter Milan - Ita
PSV Eindhoven - Hol
CSKA Moscow - Rus
Fenerbahce - T

My predictions - Inter Milan, PSV

Grp H
Arsenal - Eng
Sevilla or AEK Athens* - Spa/Gre
Steaua Bucharest - Rom
Slavia Prague - Cze

My predictions - ARSEnal, Sevilla

Ark of Noah

2007-08-31T01:17:00.000-07:00

i cant tel u if this live up to Bruce almighty cuz i didnt watch tat movie
its nt really funny but i do like it, probably due to its message behind, kinda touchin..
it involves loads of animals helpin evan to build the boat,& the animals all comes in pairs, male & female, meanin like in times of trouble or any times, couples shd stay together, side by side, sweet aint it..

My fav quote, the oli part tat i love abt this movie:
~Let me ask you something. If someone prays for patience, you think God gives them patience? Or does he give them the opportunity to be patient? If he prayed for courage, does God give him courage, or does he give him opportunities to be courageous? If someone prayed for the family to be closer, do you think God zaps them with warm fuzzy feelings, or does he give them opportunities to love each other?~
Do think abt it urself, u cant juz sit & hope 4 things to hapen, u work for it, juz tat whether u realise d opportunity is lyin rite in front of u..

p/s:One single Act of Random Kindness at a time.(ARK)
lets smile more, to strangers, say hello to ur neighbours etc all thses may brighten smone else days or even ur day.. ive tried it works i actualli feel happier wen im smilin more :)

Hairspray

2007-08-27T03:10:00.000-07:00

comedy/drama/musical
it was gd i njoyed it veri much even though im nt a musical person, d songs r actuali quite nice.. it was fun, d dance moves, d lyrics, it was all gd..
my fav role wil b john travolta as Edna, oversized mom, he pulled it off la, abit weird though but no big deal it was funni made us laugh tats wat impt.
Go catch it, recommended.
bottomline is color & size dosent matter..

Stoned

2007-08-26T15:27:00.000-07:00

Its gd to sleep whenever u want to & wake up when u wana wake, no alarm clock no worries of d time, shiok!! njoy wen it last :)

SUNDERLAND 0 LIVERPOOL 2
i miss d 1st haf, arrggh i was at smwher transformin myself heh, nwae did manage to watch d goal by momo on youtube, youtube d best la, it was a lucky shot, lucky but nice too :)
nxt up was voronin, tk god he mangaged to get 1 in aft several failed attempts, hah
gd job reds!
hope carragher is fine, its suspected he could hav broken a rib! omg.. i hope nt..

went to villa bali yest, i find it a veri nice place to chill, its outdoor d atmosphere veri relaxin, cosy perfect 4 a couple or juz a small grp of frens to hav dinner or drinks
VillaBali .Thumpsup

Fri was at timbre, nice place to hav dinner too but if ur gg wif more den 2frens its wiser to make a reservation, i wuld recommend this place if d live band is gd, but d live band sucks leh tat day, pretty borin, if its a better band den yes u can chill ther + d crowd nt veri happenin..
Timbre .Thumpsdown

She did it again

2007-08-24T04:01:00.000-07:00

yes i did it again, used my ladyscard, yek yek yek
bought smt frm liv online store, yeah! cant wait for it 2 arrived
once i got it will show off my items :)

& im feelin veri madonna listenin to d old songs, actuali love quite a few of them

Complicated no more

2007-08-22T23:54:00.000-07:00

This is it ive decided, the end, i cant do it anymore, stop b4 it gets too deep, sad its nt meant to be, well i'l get over it.. no more complications, i juz wana b simple :)

happy tots

Luis Garcia

2007-08-22T00:36:00.000-07:00

A LETTER FROM LUIS GARCIA

Letter .

my fav part:
"I'm not going to mention anyone specifically, because I think that the secret of this team's success has been exactly that: nobody wanted to stand out above the rest and there has always been a great togetherness in the squad, which made it into something more than a group of players, it was a group of friends."

wtf

2007-08-20T01:36:00.000-07:00

liverpool chelsea 1-1

it was a gd game, but smhw i felt tat it was gona turn into a fight as d atmosphere was so intense, evryones temperature risin up..
torres was such a sweetheart hehe, i like tat goal i tink so far i havent seen a goal like tis b4 in liv, him one on one against ben haim, simply awesome.
den comes d penalty, outa nowher d ref gone mad & gave a penalty to chelsea, wtf!
i didnt c finnan doin anithin wrong to maldouda, instead it seems like it was maldouda who jumped in & fell & penalty was given to him? knn. helo knock knock, d ref is definately tryin too hard la, total 9 yellow cards issued, arrgh pissed.

190807

2007-08-20T01:01:00.000-07:00

Happy bday to my sis & to smone who shared d same bday, hmmm..
family went out to hav dimsum, i went too 2 watched them eat, hehe.. i realli dnt mind at least d whole familys present 2gether..
for the 1st time i finali felt hw its like to hav a dad, aft 1yr i gt my licence he suddenly gave me d car key & said u drive
i realli appreciated it, he was realli supportive despite tat i stalled a few times, askin me to juz go ahead take whichever road i want didnt matter it was d longer way watsoever, so yea it was gd :)

kinda disappointed, nt veri funni, d oli thin i like abt is d guy & his weddin vow, nt wat he said but wat he did.. u'll understand aft u watch but pls wait for d dvd dnt waste ur money on tis

Secret

2007-08-19T01:04:00.000-07:00

i seldom or rather hardly ever watched a chinese movie, so wat strikes me to go catch tis? it actually make a guy cry, so i wana hav a feel & c if its able to touch me, most noe i nv cried in movies, & even personally wen i feel like i wana cry, i cant, i wana c if tis movie is able to work my tear glands, hah..

It was gd alrite, its actualli veri gd, i like it.. i tink i like jay chou nw more den ever, i do like sm of his music, though i nv did like his actin, but i tink he did quite alrite in tis, nt bad i wuld say.. such talent to produce a story like tis & even directed it, jay chou wo ai ni! haha
cant tel u wat its abt la, cuz its a secret, hehe.. its based on a arts school & music class, pple who hav a love of piano its a must watch..
back to d touchin part, it is touchin to a certain extend, no tears, i find it more heartwarmin, its also funni mainly romantic i guess veri sweet pure love kinda stuff

yes tis movie is strongly recommended by me, guys & gals :)

caught tis wif a old fren - sarinah, she & me go a long way back in sec1, a fren whom i dnt meet up often but can alwayz click wif & trust each other..
babe if ur readin tis, definately nt at work cuz her work place blocked all blogs site, we shd do tis more often ya even once a mth or 2 is gd enuff, cuz it had been way too loooong.. i njoyed myself despite knowin all each other shits tat we've gone thru.. hold ur head high take a deep breath & i'l b rite bside u k

Do u really miss me

2007-08-19T00:36:00.000-07:00

whats d definition of 'miss'? how do u feel exactly wen u miss someone? what wuld u do?
if u miss someone u will wana meet d person rite, if u hav d time, wuld u go out wif someone else or d someone u miss?
obviously its someone u miss rite, so does it mean if u chooses 2 meet wif someone else, u dnt actuali miss d person..
am i makin any sense here..
i hav pple callin me & ask me out, ask me wen im available, set a date, these r simple actions to show they care & wana meet up..
so hw do one make themselves believe tat if someone miss them is genuine, if no actions r taken..
nwae is tat impt, if u aint gt time 4 me, i aint gt time 4 u.. back off & get a q num, i aint gonna make my world stop juz 4 u..

a guy fren told me b4 thers no such thin as platonic frenship btw a gerl & a guy, usually d guy wuld wan more.. hw true is tat? frm experience, i stil do believe its possible to b gd frens.. i hav a couple of gd guys frens & we r still gd frens..
so tel me boys, r u guys secretly tinkin of wantin smt more frm tis frenship tats y u all treat me so nice or wat? i noe im an attractive girl :p but pls no nonsense frm u guys, u all r my frens & will alwayz be my frens, dnt ever shock me wif tellin me u hav a change of heart.. tat dosent mean can stop treatin me nice, treat me nt nice i dnt fren u ah hehe..

i am really missed by sm, barely left seagate 4 a mth & was called to go karaoke wif them.. & i went surprisingly cuz i dnt sing i dnt listen to chinese songs but like i say if u bothered i wuld gladly give u my time too..
i did sang like 2 old songs hah, so karaoke anyone?

??

2007-08-17T01:25:00.000-07:00

i feel tat im bein fucked up, dnt fucked me up, love me or leave me alone
a moment of hurt felt, anger? pain? fuck it.
im stil continuin tis alwayz givin am i stupid or wat, hah..

nwae liv won 1-0, credit to andriy voronin, our new guy, yes i c a veri bright road down :)

Stoned

2007-08-15T22:54:00.000-07:00

i do hav alot of things to blog abt but im juz so tired evryday, sittin in front of my com stonin & it doesnt help tat i feel tat time is so short.. nwae i juz wana say liv match against toulouse CL qualifier is nt airin here so gd i can sleep hehe.. nwae d result is so obvious - toulouse => to lose. :p
sun match is a must watch ya

my blood is red for a reason

2007-08-13T01:23:00.000-07:00

Gerrard [1-2] vs Aston Villa - LFC.tv Clip
Uploaded by redhalfofmerseyside

found this, tks to whoever uploaded it, i can watch tis over & over & over again, hah..

Everybody says kung fu fightin

2007-08-12T04:23:00.000-07:00

tis was yest, wasnt intendin to watch tis but since i gt nothin on & d boys wanted to, i gt no objections..
it turn out to b gd la, nothin special abt d plot, d actions so so, its d funny dialouges tats worth watchin for..
catch it for sm laughter fun & joy

exhilarated

2007-08-12T02:30:00.000-07:00

ASTON VILLA 1 - 2 LIVERPOOL

Brand new season, brand new start.
Aft a long wait, much changes, new players, new look(rafa) hehe, it was all gd it is actuali freakin great.
frankly speakin i havent been followin up on d previous matches nt even sure wat league was those, i was juz waitin for epl to kick off
so u can imagine hw excited i am 2dae & rite nw
it was all gd, did u noe its the first time in 5yrs Liverpool have got their Premier League campaign off to a winning start, yes finally a gd head start, its gona be a gd season tis time, its definately too earli to make judgement but i can feel it, the reds r gona b superb!
i love kuyt d ever hard worker, & the new bloods, torres & babel & of course stevie, his fuckin beautiful curlin, freekick was simply world class, no one is able to save tat, its perfect, im nt exaggeratin ok.
its a gd game, villa did a pretty gd job too.
cant wait for d nxt game, here we go again!

Knocked up

2007-08-02T23:54:00.000-07:00

Meet up wif mr ali aka tikus or al-hadi(sounds cooler?) hehe.. its been awhile, im bz hes bz evryones bz, wat to do we r all growth ups nw, diff committments blah blah blah.. but with abit of effort & plannin, we can all stil keep in touch happily..

Very funni movie, was laughin all the way.. d jokes r dirty, language used very crude, loadsof F****.. go watch it, nothin beats 130mins of fun & laughter..

Jay: I'm going to be there to rear your child.
Jason: You hear that, Ben? Don't let him near the kid, he wants to rear your child!

p/s:i got another bday prezzie! though its over but still u pple can stil give me present anytime anyday, i would b more den glad to accept it *smiles*

Take my test

2007-08-02T12:03:00.000-07:00

Hey people, take my test on the right navigation, just for fun, nothin better to do..
Huda hope u dnt mind, got it from ur blog :)

A woman's worth

2007-07-31T11:49:00.000-07:00

i am pissed, pissed with the boys who r self centered brainless & pissed with d ladies who r stupid..
i hav come across girls who will do anything for their boyfrens, or will not do something cuz d bfs dnt allow..
i mean wat d hell, we stand as individuals & we do watever we wana do, & im nt sayin tis things tat r nt allowed to do r bad things, for example:
not allow to wear long skirt, yes not minis but LONG skirt, wat d f* is d guy tinkin & gf u better wake up ur ideas & stop complyin..
not allow to go out with guy frens, like hello which centuries u livin in, we all have frens of both sexes..
i mean i really dnt understand..
Love is about trust, its about acceptin who they r, wateva happens happens, no matter hw much restrictions u set, it'l only hurt d relationship..
ive been ther, i used to put d bf b4 evrythin else, hinderin my evrythin, i tot i was happi, was i really? Isit really worth it, isit d way it shd b?

my ans is NO..

"So Sad,that girl was not stupid , she was in love
Some time love is stupid
Love is blind, and it will take over your mind
What you think is love is truly not
You need to elevate and find"

Thats all folks

2007-07-30T01:15:00.000-07:00

My seagaters ~~colleagues~~ ex colleagues got me this as a farewell gift, very nice & simple, i like it :)
it had been a gd 6 mths or 7, short but i c it as if i didnt work here i wouldnt have move on, there r better things for me out there to show my potential & ability, so goodbye to engineering, it had been a great 3yrs experience, im aredi movin up but am givin up to start anew, if it makes me a happier person its all worth it..
wish me the best *finger crossed*

The Simpsons

2007-07-29T04:54:00.000-07:00

Da da da da da da da da da da da da da da da da da da da da da..!
Yes yes yes its worth d wait, veri funni in fact i tink its better den d usual..
juz go watch it & hav a gd laugh..
*Spider-Pig, Spider-Pig. Does whatever a Spider-Pig does. Can he swing from a web? No he can't, cause he's a pig. Look out! He is the Spider-Pig!*
*He's not Spider-Pig anymore, he's Harry Plopper.*
Hohoho!

Bought this book - Bart Simpson guide to life,
givin it as a bdayy gift, but b4 i give away i shall read it 1st hehe, aredi read some of it & its as gd as d movie, crappy but i like it! :D
it hav sm interestin fact too, if ur a fan u shd really get it, even if ur nt u shd stil read it..

240707

2007-07-27T00:56:00.000-07:00

Aft claz went to mustafa, wanted to get chocolates for my colleagues as a small farewell token..
at tat moment it feels gd, feels gd tat i dnt hav to worry abt d time, worried tat its gettin late work tmr etc, time juz wasnt on my mind nowhere close.. so i took my time eat, shop & finally wen done & time to go back, farook say to me, duno stil gt bus or nt.. only den i look at my watch, its past 12am & i told farook its hes fault nt tellin me its gettin late aredi, hehe..
we took our chances waited for d bus, it nv came.. both of us gt no cash, i tot d nite is gona turn into a nightmare, luckily 4 us d atm is juz ard d corner so took a cab hm..
heres d best part: its a norm for d guys 2 send me to my lift so theres no exception tis time, but i gt a surprise no.2 frm farook aka logan, he gave me a big package tie with red ribbons.. its areadi aft 12, bday over but who cares its my present!
wen i opened my gift i was touched once again, haha, tis time i felt my emotions really runnin thru, prob cuz im alone at hm, d feelins i held on for d last couple days, i juz wana cry it all out, sad & happy ones.. but cannt leh, i tink i hav trained myself nt 2 shed tears til even if i want to i cant..
he gt me a bag, d same bag tat sylvia got 4 me! i remembered i did causually told him tat bag is nice once, so tk u farook, doesnt matter its d same bag, its a diff colour nwae, im nt gona change into smt else.. tats nt it, i gt a black towel, veri veri nice & earphones.. all these was mentioned d past couple mths thru our conversation, at least smone is really payin attention 2 wat im sayin, haha, but seriously it was really unexpected..

with such thoughtful frens, includin d rest of d grp tat gotten me a lacoste polo tee(i wanted 2 get 1), theres no reason i shd b upset abt those who hav forgotten my bday.. who cares & who doesnt, action speaks louder den words..

Im insyiraah, 25 yrs old, f* d numbers, i stil look gd & young.
Love u all again & again & again *HUGS*

230707 part2

2007-07-27T00:42:00.000-07:00

Mon nite plan: aft claz, HRC kumar nite with my colleagues.
As usual my mind is filled with stuff, aft claz can only tink of contactin my colleagues, wasnt even payin attention 2 wat farook was talkin..
he say he wanted to go 2 d atm so i followed, while walkin outside fish & co. ther, he suddenly said,:"Doris have u seen d poster of d missin gerl?" & pointed to d back.
actuali i wasnt really interested but turn juz for d sake of it, den i saw smt weird, & look again with scrutiny...
"SURPRISE"!! familiar faces start comin out frm potholes haha, (duno hw u guys hide)
at tat moment evrythin tat was worryin me went away, juz by seein my lovely frens was more den enuf.. im extremely happy & touched, im juz superbly glad to c d presence of u guys, all present, nt a single one missin, usually there'l b sm tat needs to work etc.. so that was my blessin..
i have to say this is my best bday ever 4 d past yrs, last yr was a surprise too but compared to nw d feelin is so different, i felt d love, haha.. 2nd best bday was my 20th back in poly with all d gang members..

**special shoutout to : alip, su, wan, farook, semut, ernie, nick, clown,
a million tks wil stil b nt enuf to show hw tis meant to me, it is u pple who make my road alot easier to carry on walkin.. additional tks to d boys who take extra care of me. Its my blessin to hav u guys , hugs & love loads :)

d photos hav uploaded, courtesy of su, alif, farook, ive made a complilation, click on d link at d side, tks

Aft celeberation, off to hrc, kumar is gd, funny, but prob those non-malays wil nt find it tat great cuz culdnt understand. Had another candle blowin, tks to d niteshift seagaters, so touched.
So tats abt it, went hm at 4? slept d bday away, stil smilin over d surprise..

230707 part1

2007-07-27T00:31:00.000-07:00

For the past wks i was very troubled mainly due to my sch fees, prob with d loan, met with loads of hiccups..
it was probably my own fault, i might have jumped into it too fast w/o really makin sure if i'l b fine financially, so rite nw im f*ing stressed out abt it.. plus d fact tat i'l b jobless in another 2days. i quit!
In times like this, i really wish ther was smone who wil tel me wat 2 do, help me etc, i feel like im suffocatin, i hav 2 make evry single decision, do evrythin myself, yes its been like tis all tis yrs i made it so far so y stressed out? pple c me as independent & strong, no doubt i tink i am too, but u hav no idea wats gg thru inside me, i pretty much dnt hav a choice but to bite my teeth & live each day, d only one i can turn to is HIM, my only solance..
in fact HE is stressin me out too, my frens u might hav been wonderin y nwadays u can c my long long hair, hw ironic at tis age it shd b d other way rnd..
im a muslim & i'l stil b til d day i die & dead, headscarf or nt doesnt make one a better or bad person, i have my reasons. full stop.
i cant bloody concentrate in class cuz my mind worryin abt stuff, im wastin time & money & energy, im messed up & i need to get it back on track.

Backtrack

2007-07-27T00:17:00.000-07:00

last sat: Watched Transformer for d 3rd time, 2nd for sylvia.. both of us stil very much excited, stil in awe of the transformation of d robots, heh..
jap for lunch, shoppin, for her nt me, we walked & walked, juz reminded me hw much i hated shoppin.. i mean i love to shop but walkin here ther evrywher is juz nt my thing..
i was lookin 4 a bagpack, since my bday ard d corner, she decided to get it 4 me but culdnt find any to my likin.. i aready set my eyes on a volcom carrier bag previously, so she gt tat 4 me instead, whoopee! i was comtempletin whether to get it myself cuz i really need to watch my spendin..
so yeah i gt a new bag! tk u gerlfren :D

240707

2007-07-24T09:58:00.000-07:00

Go shortie its ur bday! we gona party like its ur bday! haha
i got a very wonderful surprise frm my very wonderful frens, will update later 2gether wif d pics, havent slept since yest morn.. ZZzzz

The Black SunKiss

2007-07-24T05:55:00.000-07:00

New life new start new blog. I began bloggin abt 3yrs back? i cant remembered. but d reason y i started was filled with pain. Had a sudden stroke of idea to let my sad old blog go, though i reali do like pitas then blogger but i'l get used to tat..for watever reasons any of you still wana visit d discarded, heres d link - http://fadeblack.pitas.com/